You make it sound like the past was 3 years ago... or even 3 months ago. Hell, it was not even
1month ago.
You see, I think
YOU need to try and remember the past contributions you made to the forums. Go ahead, take a look at all of you past posts. Here, I'll make it easy for you,
CLICK HERENow, note your last
real contributory post. It was on 5/22/04. After that date, you posted 25 more times. With all BULLSHIT. Now, 5/22/04 was also around the time when the MOB split happened and you joined TLD. Coincidence?
Like I said, I think you need stop and take a look back at where things started going wrong for you and maybe then you can move forward in the right direction.