my mom has cancer.
she's had it for a while.
i love her probably like you love your mom.
tonight, the doctors told me it is just about done.
her time here is very limited.
that, being the eldest son, i would need to make the choice....when the exact moment comes....i am going to have to make the decision....about whether she goes on the life support...or not.

thats a hard choice.
she has cancer in 99% of her lungs and a lot of other places.
so, i will tell the doc to let her die.

right now, my life sucks like no one can believe.
i've been crying for 12 hours.

sorry, i just needed to tell you guys whats going on.
the weight is heavy.
the night is long.


anyway, i would like to toast her.
she's been an incredible person.
she'smade me what i am.
HERE'S TO YOU, MY MOM.


I LOVE YOU.

futureman.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your entire family.

thx

sorry to hear she in my prayers

She is also in my prayers. God rest her soul. Were here for you future.

Hey futureman ......same here on what realdeals comment ...........and that heaven and earh will pass away but the lords word will allways remain......for i know there is life after death .....not to say that i know all things but to say that i got lucky and had an experience .......knowing that there is life after death ......in the last days all men and woman will have a chance to recieve christ in there heart.....futureman read to her romans 10:8 through 10:13 oh and i know the feeling i just lost my oldest brother last summer......if you want to call or email me ........mrsdsl76@earthlink.net

priest, (and others)i cannot thank you enough for your heart.
i cant really tal;k about it right now....but i will read your passages to her.
i appreciate your sincere concern.
i wont forget that.
ever.

sincerely,
dustin


ps, erase your #...i wouldnt want it to fall into someones hands who doesnt mean well.

really sorry to hear about it..when a loved one is lost to cancer its really hard to see that person in your life that you thought were invincible when ur a kid and look up to go down hill in such a short time...You realise when your a little older how precious life really is and you cherish that time spent with the loved one....I know I've lost a loved one to cancer and its very hard but the memories must live on and give enough time for the heart to heal...hit me up Future if you ever need to talk man

you seem like a strong person by not giving up on your values and doing whats best for you mother. i feel for you i dread the day my mother passes, we are tight. just look to the positive thought's that are with you and keep them close to your heart. your strong. remember that. do you have a family, if so they are the best people to lean on, if not you always have you friends. good luck and if you need to let some pain go write it out, it helps. god bless and i wish you a gentle moment.

Dan

I've been where you are now. If you would like to talk, please send me a pm. I work most of tomorrow, but would be more than willing to talk with you.
You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

I'm very sorry to hear that future. I've lost a 2 family members from cancer so far, and still have 2 that are battling it. Its a very hard thing to cope with. Keep your head up. Think about all the good things your mothers done, and all the good times youve had with her. Celebrate the life she lived. Take care brother.

thanks for the prayers.
talk to you guys soon.

Future, I'll be honest. I'm so young that I've never lost a family member that I was extremely close too, especially someone who I am close to like my mom. I can imagine what youre going through right now and words can't describe how sorry I am. Stay strong.


You and your family will also be in my thoughts and prayers. God bless.

We are here for you. God Bless

give her our best bro. god bless you guys. tell her that we hope that she enjoys the minutes/hours/days/years she has left. no matter what. tell her that she should do the things she loved most( to a certain degree though). may god help you through your rough time and deep good will with you and your family.Bloodhound 1:1 i know how you feel man. i lost my sister about 3 years ago. its been hard for me and my family. God be with you bro

Sorry man to hear that, ill pray for her..
Im starting to admire you man, i wouldnt have it in me to take that decision, thats too much, you'll be fine man, she will be going to a better life...

lets all have a huge toast for futureman and his mother. and may god help him to make the right decision futureman. i know i have said this before, but bro, the wound that will be opening up (or is already opended up) it will heal. it just takes a matter of time. May god help you bro, god rest her soul.

yeah, were here for you.

Ah man... So sorry to hear that. None of us know how hard it is. I'll put a place in my daily prayers for her. I admire you for being so strong. I dont know you that much or for too long, but we here. So sorry man...

Futureman, I know I haven't talked to you or anything but I feel for you because I went through the exact same thing but only my Dad and my Brother. Its hard but you just have to look at what would they want. Hooked up to a machine is not a way to live. A preacher man once told me that once its all over that you will feel better in a sence of relief even tho you miss the love one greatly. And it was true. I had just lost my brother a few months ago and still miss him greatly. I'll be thinking about you when you have to make that decision.

i really and truly appreciate the replies and thoughts. i means a lot.

update. a miracle. the prayer must have worked.

my mom went home yesterday. she isnt "better" but she definitely is "better".

i cant believe she is surviving but it sure as hell makes me happy.

once again, thank you.

future

Good to hear that man, the good lord is there for you...

I feel bad for you. A few years ago I went through a period in my life where my brother was killed in a car accident, a friend committed suicide, and another friend was killed in a car accident along with his 3 year old daughter. All this happened within 2 months. The one thing I learned through all of that was death is nothing to be feared. People move on to better places and rejoin the friends and family that they themselves have lost.

cyph, on the day the doctor walked in to the hospital room and told us that the end would be a matter of hours for my mom, what you just posted is the realization i came to.

standing there talking with my mother, who also knew she wouldnt be there tomorrow (but has somehow), i started to think that once she came to grips with the fact that she could pass at any time, she semed to be a lot more at ease than the rest of us who were extremely upset. she was cool and collective...as if she knew she was just moving on. that one day we would all be back together.

maybe it was my imagination and she was just in a state of shock, but she and i sat there and as the moments passed, we began to talk and smile and laugh.

maybe death is just a halftime show.

maybe part 2 is just waiting.

Death is just the end of Dying. It seems as if all the bad comes at one time. Its a test. What doesnt kill you will only make you stronger. Good luck Futureman, and we're all glad to hear the good news.

man, i feel really bad about all of the things you are going through. but they are right bro, "death isnt there to be freared.

I know what your going through ive lost 3 family members to cancer my grandpa who was my life he didnt die from cancer but hes not here im sorry for whats going on but i do belive all things happen for a reason those reasons may not be what you want them to be or turn out the way you want them to but it was allready writen for her to go when the times comes all i can advise you to do is charish the time that is given and love her man cause im still depressed over my grandpas andits been tough 3 years i pray for u and your fam god give u strengh and courage bro if u need to talk bro about the after affects just hit me up casue i know what your going through to the t just remeber will all be together allways in your prayers bro

Futureman - Even though I do not know you as well as some of the other MOB members I will still keep your Mom in my prayers to have her stay with you as Long as Possible and when its her time I will pray that God keep her safe in his hands.

God Bless

John_Michaels

future... i feel for you man... i hope you two cherrish your time together. just remember that she WILL go to a better place, and that she'll be there waiting for you... also, like others said, life is not the end. life is just a short escapade from eternity. when you die you'll go back to the place u were before your life. where that place is i dont know, but you will go there until your next life... and you will see your mother up in that place... you'll get to communicate with her and love her up there just as you loved her here. but until then, just remember EVERYTHING she taught you, and keep those things close at heart so that you'll never forget them, and that you'll live your life by her ideals. whenever you need guidance, it's only a beat of the heart away... for you will have her in your heart and she will guide you through the rest of your life... i hope you get some more cherrishable moments with your mother before it's too late. just remember that, her soul will remain in your heart and it will guide you through life. if you ever need to talk... PM me...

i hope the best for you and your mother in your final times before taking a break for a small click of time... but you will see her when that break is over. i believe you wont literally see her, but when you go, you'll be with her, and you'll know you'll be with her wherever you go. tho u guys may not be human form, you'll know each other without sight... and you'll communicate without words, but you'll be closer than ever...

good luck man... i will be thinking about you and her tonight.

May good faith march with you,
Eric Idelson

i appreciate the good words.
i am spending all the time i can.
funny though. she has somehow made a comeback. it is the best shit ever.
my mom is at home, walking around and doing things.
i didnt think that would be.

the prayers worked.

I lost my grandmother due to cancer too a fue months ago....
It's not a very nice expirience at alll...........BUT, you have to know that she is suffering to much in this world and that she is going to pass to a better life now, without the pain she is feeling here right now. Thank God for every minute you spend with her, be gratefull for all the moments you had with her 'cuz there are people that didn't even have the chance to see their mother. I'll pray for her soul and I want you to know that you have a family is us.

*Had the chance

man, that's awesome. im really sensitive about stuff like this, and when i read that right there it brought a tear to my eye almost... u and ur mother were on my mind last night, and i'm so very happy for the both of you that you'll get to spend much more time with each other. good thing she didn't give up the fight and she's winning at the moment =) i hope you enjoy the extended amount of time with you and your mother. BE STRONG MAN! you know we're all here for you.

Eric

you should write her a poem, that would make her really really happy =)

you should also tell her how many ppl hold her in their thoughts and prayers. i made a post about you on letsroll. the ppl there most likely feel as compassionate towards you as i do through this whole thing.

here's the thread: http://letsroll911.org/ipw-web/bulletin/bb...opic.php?t=5402

too,
thank you. that was over and beyond and i appreciate it.

my kids get to go visit her for the first time since the hospital stay this coming sunday so that will be a big deal for her and me. she misses them but couldnt have young people visit due to the amount of colds and coughs that little people generally carry.

but since her platlates(sp?) are coming back, the doc said that things should be good.

go mom.

gangsta,
thanks, man.

platelates i do believe...

im glad to hear things are gettin better... see you're a good man and all, and just cause we disagree with political issues shouldnt make us enemies. i respect you and ur emotions, and i feel for you for what is happening. i hope for the best for you and your mom.

you are welcome man

cheers