hey all, sorry i havnt been around alot i started a new job reciently and have been putting in too much overtime. im writing this to vent out all the drama in my life right now. so if ya dont want to read alot of bullshit pass over this. as some of ya know im a volunteer fire fighter. ive been in for 3 years i hold certification in fire fighter opperations and reciently made squad for auto extrication. socially i hold several delegates positions and run various fund raising commities along with fire prevention etc. also am a truste responsible for making purchaces for the company. so if im not in work im there if not there im on here. this is my sancutary...reciently my wife applyed to get in the fire hall...well i am not liked by clicks at the fire company about half of the people in the company. and there has been a war going on reciently with our click and the others. our click had a division like mob reciently but it was a friendly one...or so i thought...when my wife was to get voted on today they voted her down...25-13...not because she couldnt do the job...not because she didnt give it her all...because she is a woman. because they dont like me...i am a very loyal person. i have been convicted on charges because i took the rap for somone else...i dont talk shit about people i wouldnt say to their face. but in the end the guys i trained with risked my life with have stuck me in the back. they turned on me tonight. i have came close to death twice in three years one in a tank fire the second in a truck incident were a rookie was driving and almost rolled the truck. i was credited with saving the guys sister she was going out the window. but all this shit dont matter. me rasing 4 thousand dollers more then any other commitie member dont matter. i have given this shithole my all and they betrayed me. i am hurt deeply i cannot trust the men behind me...what if he leaves me ona search? i love what i do...but now i feel like they are laughing behind my back...i feel like i should go to an attorney over the shit with my wife...she was in the top 10 percent for making fire calls and drills...bullshit...i dont know what to do i just know thet they crushed my loyality and my feelings... idont know who my friends are anymore... i know 2 but my bestfriend the captian i want to know if i dis-own the company will he also not talk to me...as i said im sorry to do all this i just nned to vent and need to tell somone...made me feel better...thanks and soory real and druid for taking up web space or what you call it

i wasn't going to read that cos of the lack of paragraphing lol but ended up reading it anyway

you're right man

not sure what i'd do in that situation. is there any1 higher up u could talk 2 about it?

well silver, it seems to me and just my opinion, you work in a very immature area and not very professional. If i was you, i would try to find a diff fire hall, same with your wife, its not right not to let her in just cuz shes a woman. One of the ways people better themselves is tacking a stand and doing whats right. So what if you lose "friends" on the way, if you lose them, they never were friends.

You need to go on a walk to the park, lake, your yard whatever you do your thinking, and just take a moment and think " who am i, what am i, what will i and want to achieve, and if im happy in where im at" do some soul serching.

I'm sorry to hear about your problems Silver, You should definately seek an attorney about what happened to your wife, and you may consider perhaps a more professional work enviornment like Soup said

Sincerely and Respectfully,

Nicky Santoro(The Wise Guys)

I don't know what I'd do in your situation. I know it can be very hard to get into a firehouse, no matter what the situation. Knowing how much you love the job I would consider moving somewhere nearby, but like I said, I know how hard it can be just gettin in. I'm sorry to hear about the trouble. I'm originally from a town with a volunteer fire department. I've always wanted to be a "volunteer" fireman. I don't think there is a more honerable job than that. I can't say I've done much to further this dream, but it is still a goal, regardless. Good luck with your situation, I hope the best for you.

Thanks all... ive taken in alot of what yall said... i had a run last night 5 hours there and back so i had some time to think...next year i want to buy a house... i dont think it will be in this neighborhood... i had a talk with my captian...i told him this aint what i joined for... this isnt high school... and things are gonna get worse... blah blah blah... im not gonna let them make me leave ill leave on my own... but all of you are right it is immature i never thought of it like that... its just so petty... what happened to the brotherhood... what a shame... a it usto be a fine company... im no longer hurt more or less ashamed by them. just too much drama... its should be fun not aggrevating... i just dont feel a part of them anymore. thanks for all your support ...

we are here for ya buddy

sorry not to reply sooner...didnt read it till now...personnaly D...I am but a young man not worthy of making those choices for you. You will have to make the decisions on your own because I do not quite realize how I would deal with the situation. As for your wife GO GO ATTOURNY! With tons of respect, FLAME

Hey, Sorry for the late reply. What you said was kind of depressing, but you kind of showed us what we all know, for the most part, Life Sucks. But what makes a good person is that they overcome the shit. You sound like an awsome person and like someone i could be friends with. I am lucky for meeting you over MOHAA, even if it is just a game. See you iin the server and alsop Vnet anytime, haha you have ppl to hear you, and telling ppl your problems can help alot. sorry for sounding "inspirational"haha.

see you,
Orange

no problem BTW di you get my email?

To understand reality is not the same as to know about outward events. It is to perceive the essential nature of things. The best-informed man is not necessarily the wisest. Indeed there is a danger that precisely in the multiplicity of his knowledge he will lose sight of what is essential. But on the other hand, knowledge of an apparently trivial detail quite often makes it possible to see into the depth of things. And so the wise man will seek to acquire the best possible knowledge about events, but always without becoming dependent upon this knowledge. To recognize the significant in the factual is wisdom.

deep D and Soup...reallllll deep...

ooo deep man...reminds me of when i read the art of war

reality is ones perception, reality is the same to a crazy man as it is to us he just sees it diffrent. reality is also public oponion as to define public preception. but a wise man sits with the demented, knows what fears the masses, and learns life from a flower.


orange nope no e-mail try pming me

i feel for ya D get , tell ur wife to geta lawyer and just relax