im using missionary now and no real problems yet, just a little lag.. if i shutdown my processes what happens to them, i notice my internet explorer is under that how would i get it back and everything else. does come back automatically?

I think your referring to windows explorer and that process needs to be there. If you want to learn more about processes, take a look at my post HERE

ok. i shut down the processes but nothing came back when i exited missionary.. i had to shut off my comp and when i logged back on they were there

Yeah, missionary does not restart the processes after it shuts down, you need to restart your computer. Do not shut down "explorer.exe"