Venting... Options

[Silver]

hey all, sorry i havnt been around alot i started a new job reciently and have been putting in too much overtime. im writing this to vent out all the drama in my life right now. so if ya dont want to read alot of bullshit pass over this. as some of ya know im a volunteer fire fighter. ive been in for 3 years i hold certification in fire fighter opperations and reciently made squad for auto extrication. socially i hold several delegates positions and run various fund raising commities along with fire prevention etc. also am a truste responsible for making purchaces for the company. so if im not in work im there if not there im on here. this is my sancutary...reciently my wife applyed to get in the fire hall...well i am not liked by clicks at the fire company about half of the people in the company. and there has been a war going on reciently with our click and the others. our click had a division like mob reciently but it was a friendly one...or so i thought...when my wife was to get voted on today they voted her down...25-13...not because she couldnt do the job...not because she didnt give it her all...because she is a woman. because they dont like me...i am a very loyal person. i have been convicted on charges because i took the rap for somone else...i dont talk shit about people i wouldnt say to their face. but in the end the guys i trained with risked my life with have stuck me in the back. they turned on me tonight. i have came close to death twice in three years one in a tank fire the second in a truck incident were a rookie was driving and almost rolled the truck. i was credited with saving the guys sister she was going out the window. but all this shit dont matter. me rasing 4 thousand dollers more then any other commitie member dont matter. i have given this shithole my all and they betrayed me. i am hurt deeply i cannot trust the men behind me...what if he leaves me ona search? i love what i do...but now i feel like they are laughing behind my back...i feel like i should go to an attorney over the shit with my wife...she was in the top 10 percent for making fire calls and drills...bullshit...i dont know what to do i just know thet they crushed my loyality and my feelings... idont know who my friends are anymore... i know 2 but my bestfriend the captian i want to know if i dis-own the company will he also not talk to me...as i said im sorry to do all this i just nned to vent and need to tell somone...made me feel better...thanks and soory real and druid for taking up web space or what you call it

[soup nazi]

To understand reality is not the same as to know about outward events. It is to perceive the essential nature of things. The best-informed man is not necessarily the wisest. Indeed there is a danger that precisely in the multiplicity of his knowledge he will lose sight of what is essential. But on the other hand, knowledge of an apparently trivial detail quite often makes it possible to see into the depth of things. And so the wise man will seek to acquire the best possible knowledge about events, but always without becoming dependent upon this knowledge. To recognize the significant in the factual is wisdom.